Well for one, i didn’t get a box of chocs like she did, neither did my better half come down from Johor, neither did i help my friend deliver flowers to his crush and i didn’t fold a dozen roses for my crush too.
Hahaha I was in coffee island on the wee hours of Valentines with a group of Project Formulation friends frying our brain cells on C# and trying to sort our head with MySQL. Which apparently i didn’t sleep at all. For the 14th of February 2009 i had my project formulation presentation. Whole night was trying to get the codes in order.
So i went to college at 9am and impatiently waited for my turn to have my presentation for my project. Well i waited for 4 hours which my eye lids were tied to a whale. Well it was no ones fault that i didn’t sleep hahaha.
With so much work and which i’ve decided to focus on my work and all. It’s sometimes hard to find time even for myself. It’s kinda complicated. Well but i got to do what i got to do and no one is gonna stop me….
Well, i just want to have dinner and maybe a good conversation. It’s so hard to get one these days. So would the girl waiting for dolphins on the ferry give me the honor of having dinner with me?
I would like to thank
- Whisper - for always cheering me up and reminding me
- Alwin - for being a good friend and discussing the issue
- KM - for mentally slapping me with the issue
- Theresa - for giving me advise and “research”
- Boss Ong - for WILLING TO HELP ME OUT WHEN I NEEDED SOMEONE MOST!!!
I would like to not thank
- Babi Cheng - for forcing me to photoshop and keep me awake and not wanting to chat with me
So, I’ve decided. And i’m going ahead despite the pressure. Live life once… So i guess i’ll be a thick face this time. Got no other choice, since i’m obssesed over it, might as well i get it done once and for all. Financial part is not an issue. I don’t mind spending. Somehow none of them said i was wasting it. LOL and i’m glad i have peers that understand me. Xcept for the Babi! I’m not going to change my mind hahahaha so hopefully i get a positive result and i’ll blog about it.
Oh and i’m jealous my lil sister got married before me… i want to minum teh…
Listening to -
Timmy Thomas - Dying Inside to Hold You
Live Messenger Personal Message -
would you give me a chance?
aaarh, freaking depressed now. I need a tight slap on my face to bring me back to reality. KM where are you when i need you? sad la you. Preproduction is due in 5 days time, and i’ve like completed only 50% of it. I still have time to finish it actually, but that means there will be not much sleep and leisure for this 5 days. But i’m not really worried about it. At least not to the extend of losing my focus.
Boss Ong, next wed i need to go for movie d. Planning to treat Boss for movie, but he big shot wan, dunno free to go out with me or not.
Babi Lynn has been so busy lately, and i really hate talking to her AI chat bot.
I need a walk along the shore with the waves and stars….
Listening to -
Lew - About DB and FTP
Live Messenger Personal Message -
freaking depressed now….
i’m super duper bored. This might sound pathetic, but i’m out of inspiration. No mood to anything now LOL.I have another 10 episodes of Gundam Wing ready for me, but somehow not in the mood. Have a list of things to do for my Project Formulation, but i guess thatz gotta wait till tomolo morn. Going out with Justin and Alwin tomolo. Bugger came back from Aussie. So tomolo hope it’s a fine day 
I actaully planned to watch Legend Of The Seeker tonight. But pula pula i pinjam Alwin my external hdd. So i got ntg to watch now. hmmmm just wanna watch humans instead of anime….
ok, i guess thats it for today. not in the mood to blog either. Just that i’ve ntg interesting to do today….
Listening to -
It’s Not Easy To Be Me - Five For Fighting
Live Messenger Personal Message -
i need a reason to fight and persevere…
ooo… everybody’s back. Everybody reached home safely. PC, KM and Alwins back. PC owes me pizza and steamboat, so i’m so looking forward to it. Have a date with pretty and not to forget the grown up KM. Shez been back a few times, but we’ve not got the chance to chit chat for such a long time. I’M GONNA CUT THAT RED HAIR OFF!!! For Alwin, i’m going camping with him this Thursday at Penang National Park. We plan for a mid night hike. Really looking forward to get my mid off work.
Today Aunty Uncle Tan got their new Inspiron. So they gave me their old computer. hehehehe at least now i can have a 24/7/365 computer to run my torrents. WAHAHAHA i’m evil
Er, other then that i bought myself a headset. Recommended by Mr Keat Liang. Its not branded and its really cheap. I’m using it now, and its really comfy. I’ve started listing down things for this week to complete. Hopefully i can get all of them down. Thanks to Jie Shuin, i’m currently addicted to Gundam Wing. If i can’t manage to finish my work, it’s the Burgerman’s fault…..
Listening to -
Love of My Life - Jim Brickman
Live Messenger Personal Message -
i’m out of inspiration… i lost my faith….
Been really busy lately. Ok i admit, i seem to have a habit of starting of my blog post like this. Lately i’ve been abit out of focus on my studies. I know its not an excuse. Nothing much happened lately. Anime not coming out, TV Series are slowly coming out, TVB no nice shows to watch, Assignments on deadline, work have to complete. But most of all, i’m waiting for next month. Where most of my burdens will be lifted and i can focus back on things that really matters.
However, there’s this issue thats been bugging me everyday. It has been eating into my confidence level. And it freakingly bothering me. Unfortunately there is no immediate sollution to this matter. And i’ve been managing this problem ever since i could remember. It’s like having this big jigsaw puzzle and you just can’t seem to find the very last piece to complete the masterpiece. I don’t plan to leave it aside this time. I’ll persue and complete that missing last piece.
Other then that, i somehow manage to manage everything else. not perfectly but at least everything is in order….
Last but not least, CAKES TO BAKE!!!
ok, i’m guilty of skipping class. I’ve been very fondly skipping class lately. I’m not gonna make the workload i have as an excuse. But i did sacrfice college time XD. Lately i’ve been upgrading myself alot. Doing all sort of things.
I’ve a few things pilling up and i know i should not procrastinate anymore. Need to complete before CNY or i’m dead.
- Project Formulation Website ( completed most of core functions, long way to go )
- Project Formulation Documentation ( barely started, Ms Judy gonna kill me )
- VB.net Project ( this wan barely looked into it )
- VB.net Practical ( completed the first part, did not touch the second )
- Networking Practical ( have not started )
- Web Base Management and Maintenance Assignment ( have not started )
Now today one of my ex lecturers smsed me. And the sms read - “ Heard tat u r married. I dun believe the news. U r 2 young 2 b comited 2 ur laptop la. ” Wahlau, since when did i get married??? Er, to young is not an issue. Just that i’ve not reach the comfort level where i can comfortably raise a family. Need to stablize career before i do anything.
Ok, I’ve just "restarted" my blog again. Giving it a new life. Probably it’s good for me to change my stuff once in a while to reflect the person I really am today. Well I’m sure all of us go through changes in life. Where each stage we change a lil more and a lil more. Bad or Good, that’s another story.
So it has already been 5 years. It’s already going into the sixth. No, I’m not talking about going into blogging. But I’ve manage to persevere for this 5 years and not strayed from my path. And now I’m very sure I’m of a different level. Again not saying I’m good, but I’m better. My learning curve has exponentially increased, and my skill sets has improved tremendously. Not only in computers but other fields too. Especially in life, I know what I want and I know what it takes. I wouldn’t say I’m a smart or hardworking person, but I’ve probably learned to persevere no matter what it takes. To endure….
But I’m still not happy and not contented with the current situation I’m in. I’ve already determined my path and I’m ready to sacrifice what it takes too reach my destination. Most of my peers are still lost somewhere in their own world or still sleeping. When the time comes reality is gonna hit so hard….
I have my own company, I’m generating a lil income to support myself, I now have a lil "daughter" to look after which she gives me support and lots of love, I got a few projects running and I’m the biggest problem is I’m still here.
I’m actually not worried of not being able to find a job. May it be with a degree or not, I know I’m capable of being hired by a few people.
However I’m much more ambitious and I’ve things to attend to before I kick the bucket. I know you’ve said I’ve got a very nice smile. But it has been a really long time since I’ve genuinely smiled. In the mean time I’ll see to it that I persevere….
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