i’m super duper bored. This might sound pathetic, but i’m out of inspiration. No mood to anything now LOL.I have another 10 episodes of Gundam Wing ready for me, but somehow not in the mood. Have a list of things to do for my Project Formulation, but i guess thatz gotta wait till tomolo morn. Going out with Justin and Alwin tomolo. Bugger came back from Aussie. So tomolo hope it’s a fine day 
I actaully planned to watch Legend Of The Seeker tonight. But pula pula i pinjam Alwin my external hdd. So i got ntg to watch now. hmmmm just wanna watch humans instead of anime….
ok, i guess thats it for today. not in the mood to blog either. Just that i’ve ntg interesting to do today….
Listening to -
It’s Not Easy To Be Me - Five For Fighting
Live Messenger Personal Message -
i need a reason to fight and persevere…
ooo… everybody’s back. Everybody reached home safely. PC, KM and Alwins back. PC owes me pizza and steamboat, so i’m so looking forward to it. Have a date with pretty and not to forget the grown up KM. Shez been back a few times, but we’ve not got the chance to chit chat for such a long time. I’M GONNA CUT THAT RED HAIR OFF!!! For Alwin, i’m going camping with him this Thursday at Penang National Park. We plan for a mid night hike. Really looking forward to get my mid off work.
Today Aunty Uncle Tan got their new Inspiron. So they gave me their old computer. hehehehe at least now i can have a 24/7/365 computer to run my torrents. WAHAHAHA i’m evil
Er, other then that i bought myself a headset. Recommended by Mr Keat Liang. Its not branded and its really cheap. I’m using it now, and its really comfy. I’ve started listing down things for this week to complete. Hopefully i can get all of them down. Thanks to Jie Shuin, i’m currently addicted to Gundam Wing. If i can’t manage to finish my work, it’s the Burgerman’s fault…..
Listening to -
Love of My Life - Jim Brickman
Live Messenger Personal Message -
i’m out of inspiration… i lost my faith….
Been really busy lately. Ok i admit, i seem to have a habit of starting of my blog post like this. Lately i’ve been abit out of focus on my studies. I know its not an excuse. Nothing much happened lately. Anime not coming out, TV Series are slowly coming out, TVB no nice shows to watch, Assignments on deadline, work have to complete. But most of all, i’m waiting for next month. Where most of my burdens will be lifted and i can focus back on things that really matters.
However, there’s this issue thats been bugging me everyday. It has been eating into my confidence level. And it freakingly bothering me. Unfortunately there is no immediate sollution to this matter. And i’ve been managing this problem ever since i could remember. It’s like having this big jigsaw puzzle and you just can’t seem to find the very last piece to complete the masterpiece. I don’t plan to leave it aside this time. I’ll persue and complete that missing last piece.
Other then that, i somehow manage to manage everything else. not perfectly but at least everything is in order….
Last but not least, CAKES TO BAKE!!!
ok, i’m guilty of skipping class. I’ve been very fondly skipping class lately. I’m not gonna make the workload i have as an excuse. But i did sacrfice college time XD. Lately i’ve been upgrading myself alot. Doing all sort of things.
I’ve a few things pilling up and i know i should not procrastinate anymore. Need to complete before CNY or i’m dead.
- Project Formulation Website ( completed most of core functions, long way to go )
- Project Formulation Documentation ( barely started, Ms Judy gonna kill me )
- VB.net Project ( this wan barely looked into it )
- VB.net Practical ( completed the first part, did not touch the second )
- Networking Practical ( have not started )
- Web Base Management and Maintenance Assignment ( have not started )
Now today one of my ex lecturers smsed me. And the sms read - “ Heard tat u r married. I dun believe the news. U r 2 young 2 b comited 2 ur laptop la. ” Wahlau, since when did i get married??? Er, to young is not an issue. Just that i’ve not reach the comfort level where i can comfortably raise a family. Need to stablize career before i do anything.
I’m guilty for ponteng-ing college today. Kevin and Judy might just prosecute me for that. Well, i did some soul searching. I’ve got my results for the Mid Term and their not very convincing. It’s not mainly about the results but its more of the unfortunate events recently. Economics i got a D+ which i was expecting at least a B or C. VB.net i got an A- which infact i expected a C. Web Base Management was totally uncalled for. I guess sometimes i should put more effort into Web Base Management. For Econs, so be it. I don’t have to explain anything to anybody.
Took Whisper for a hike today. Gatai kaki, and i went to track a new path in Moon Gate. Apparently it was so freaking steap which i had to carry Whisper all the way up. Couldn’t bare to see her slip down the ravine. And for that i couldn’t really use my hands to climb. It was kinda dangerous and deep into the jungle. Must remind myself not to follow some whacky maniac old aunty directions to hike. Must let Alwin know about this track. More like jungle trekking compared to hiking. Took about 45 minutes to reach point 5 this time. Fortunately experience really help this time. Really gatai kaki this time.
Besides that, today i saw something which i shouldn’t. Already half a decade since i had access to it. Went to comment on a friends blog and the link was there! Really freaked me out as i thought it was no longer there for public eyes. I had to block access to it. Mampui if anybody were to lay their eyes on it. And of course i wouldn’t want history to haunt us and cause trouble. I guess what i did was for the best. I wanted to delete it, but then i somehow just couldn’t press that button. So i shut it out from outside. But over is over…
Ok, I’ve just "restarted" my blog again. Giving it a new life. Probably it’s good for me to change my stuff once in a while to reflect the person I really am today. Well I’m sure all of us go through changes in life. Where each stage we change a lil more and a lil more. Bad or Good, that’s another story.
So it has already been 5 years. It’s already going into the sixth. No, I’m not talking about going into blogging. But I’ve manage to persevere for this 5 years and not strayed from my path. And now I’m very sure I’m of a different level. Again not saying I’m good, but I’m better. My learning curve has exponentially increased, and my skill sets has improved tremendously. Not only in computers but other fields too. Especially in life, I know what I want and I know what it takes. I wouldn’t say I’m a smart or hardworking person, but I’ve probably learned to persevere no matter what it takes. To endure….
But I’m still not happy and not contented with the current situation I’m in. I’ve already determined my path and I’m ready to sacrifice what it takes too reach my destination. Most of my peers are still lost somewhere in their own world or still sleeping. When the time comes reality is gonna hit so hard….
I have my own company, I’m generating a lil income to support myself, I now have a lil "daughter" to look after which she gives me support and lots of love, I got a few projects running and I’m the biggest problem is I’m still here.
I’m actually not worried of not being able to find a job. May it be with a degree or not, I know I’m capable of being hired by a few people.
However I’m much more ambitious and I’ve things to attend to before I kick the bucket. I know you’ve said I’ve got a very nice smile. But it has been a really long time since I’ve genuinely smiled. In the mean time I’ll see to it that I persevere….
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